Apathy means, really, to be lacking an interest or enthusiasm. Which, I am. In so, so many aspects of my existence, not to sound all "woe is me" or anything..
Being a teenage girl, the amount of bitching and gossip and rumours and crap and melodrama I have to contend with is getting beyond a joke. My own circle of homies aside, walking down a corridor has become walking through a tunnel of "did you hear what she did?!", "but, she thinks you're a cow but I wasn't meant to say anything" and-my personal favourite-"she's a stuck up bitch" which on my daily walk to English I don't really care for. It is so tiring and so boring that now, I've reached a point of not really caring. I hear things, I listen, might comment or just agree because it's easiest but am I that bothered? No.
There are way, way bigger fish that need frying and I dont want to waste the oil.
Nor can I justify it, how is spending your lesson texting the girl next to you about how far you went with a guy or what she said to her a positive use of anyones time? But maybe, I'm just bitter because I'm tired and have coursework due tomorrow.
I'm apathetic about feeling apathetic. Or maybe , I'm bored. Could well be a combination of both. Hm. I often wonder if it's just me that gets like this? Or if everyone else does too. I hope, for my own sanity, it isn't just me. And, for the record, I'm a gossip, it's fine, I was just saying and not being massively hypocritical. I dont like doing it but I do and we all do and that's life and life can suck. :D
o&o blossoms.
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